I just realized that I never submitted anything during October, well.. journal wise anyway..
It has to do with the whole unpopular why would anyone want to read or see my stuff but yet I keep uploading and posting anyway sort of situation/feelings.. if that makes any sense at all. *shrugs*
So, October went by fast. I had my birthday on the 7th, cake, dinner, fun stuff.
I lost one of my furbabies near the end, or I should say I was told that she had passed away. I have no idea when she actually passed away.
Her name was Freya and she was a derp cat but I loved her. <3 She didn't like it here after we moved, too many other kitties and kitties kept picking on her even if she was just sleeping and minding her own business. She ended up adopting a family down the street, I wasn't okay with this at first, not at all. I tried to get her to come home and stay home but she would always go back over there when she was let out. I eventually gave in, talked to the family, they were good people so I allowed her to just live her life there. I missed her like crazy and at first she would still come when called but after a while she would just ignore me, it sounds silly but it hurt. I wanted my Freya. My derpy little cross eyed Freya. She was happy there though, she got big, not like fat but just big. She was spoiled, I could tell. She got lots of love and attention, they took great care of her. She ended up getting some sort of cancer, I don't know what kind I wasn't told all the details unfortunately. They did everything they could for her and had to make the choice. I'm really sad, even though she hasn't really been my baby for 2 years. She was my baby for all the other years I had her. I just wanted to see her one more time but I never got the chance to. I miss her so much. I didn't make a post like this for Spooky, I wasn't as connected to Spooky as I was Freya. Don't get me wrong, I loved Spooky too, he was just more my Mom's cat than mine. I miss him though, him and his derp ear. Sigh. He passed away in September. *flails*
Sorry for the sad post. I'm just thinking too much tonight, its 3:02am and I really should be sleeping but I forgot to plug in my phone to charge before bed so I'm waiting. I listen to music during the night to help me sleep.
Gotta have it charged.
I got a new camera for my birthday! Its just a little compact thing that I can carry with me all the time so I don't have to lug my DSLR everywhere. But, I haven't been in the mood to really take photos. It has an AMAZING macro setting though that I LOVE and once I get the supplies I need I'm going to try to do those bad ass water droplet pictures that people do. I wont be nearly as good but still.
Its November now.. uh.. hmm..
Oh I've got a craft show on the 22nd that I'm going to be selling at.. yeah, craft show! >.> To be honest craft shows and my stuff don't really go well together.. at least not here.. too many older folk come through, not enough younger people. :c
I'm hoping this one will be different though, I dunno, we shall see.
After that I have to start getting ready for Bak-Anime! YAHOO! Its in January! I can't wait for that, I'm super excited! I'm probably going to do a fairly simple cosplay and cosplay as Nyanpire. I just.. I don't have the confidence to cosplay, I feel like.. I just ruin the characters.. but I can't just sit at my booth in normal clothes, I have to dress up somehow.. but yeah.. so hopefully I can do this Nyanpire and be 'super cute' and bring more people to come buy my stuff. @_@
I should probably stop typing now.. :c
I have to quit Wildstar probably.. I mean I haven't played in a couple months because my computer is a piece of shit and wont let me go into Thayd.. I lag like a bitch and then crash.. so its like FUUUU and sometimes when I'm just out questing I crash cause my computers a dinosaur and hates me and doesn't want me to be happy. I haven't played an MMORPG in like.. 3 months and I'm sad. Gaming used to be my life.. and now its just a distant memory..
I am getting Fantasy Life tomorrow though! Super excited for that! ^_^
I wanted to get FFXIV but.. I don't know if I will like it enough, I played through the trial a little bit and I just kept thinking.. what if I don't like it? Then I wasted my money but then again.. I used to play WoW and wasted my money on that.. I miss WoW so much. :c Ugh.. I miss my gaming life.. such fun times that used to be.. Oh well.. maybe I can get my mojo back whenever I get a new computer.. which will probably be NEVER since I'm poor! :c
I think this might be the longest journal I have ever written, I just keep going even though I should've stopped a while ago...
Okay okay I'm done. :c